Skin woes

I'm currently on my way home from a consultation at Doctor KW Chan's Clinic, trying to hide my sans makeup, acne-ridden face, and complying to the sudden urge to write this blog post. It doesn't have a purpose and it's doesn't have a structure (so it's probably not going to make a lot of sense either), but I just needed to get it off my chest.

Just in case my makeup skills are that good, I've been suffering from really bad skin for about 5-6 years now #gross. My secondary school friends would probably know my condition best, given that they got to witness the transition between perfect, to slightly pimply, to full-out breakout skin, and because I wasn't allowed to hide my problems behind a layer of thick makeup back then. 

But now that I actually can, foundation is a NECCESSITY. It doesn't matter that I have to wake up half an hour earlier just to sit in front of my mirror and painstakingly manuveur my brush over those spots and blemishes, I will do ANYTHING to try to hide them. 

So today, I went to Doctor KW Chan to seek a magical solution: laser resurfacing. 

But of course, it didn't work out (this post will be filled with photos of my lobster-red face otherwise) because my acne problem is still pretty bad. Instead, he gave me a series of 5 skincare products and put me on antibiotics - Ha! Take that mother. 

And just to be an ass, my dad who accompanied me to the clinic tried to get it proven that my lack of sufficient sleep and water intake is a factor behind my bad skin. Instead, the doctor chucked them off as old wives tales and pointed out that while those affects our health, it doesn't directly affect our skin. He also added that it has to do with genetics, all the while staring at the bearer in the face. Yet another take that moment. 

Seriously though, I'm so sick of people telling me that my bad skin is a result of my love for sweet stuff (okay, that is actually a proven factor), and bad lifestyle choices. Why don't you put the blame on menstruation and hormones for once - because that's actually SCIENTIFICALLY PROVEN?

I don't get to choose how my hormones work, or where my genes are from for that matter, and for God's sake, I wash my face AT LEAST TWICE EVERYDAY. Don't you think I wish I can just wash all these imperfections away as well? And before you blame it on my constant need for makeup, makeup actually helps me because it stops my incessant need to scratch at the scabs on my eternally dry and peely skin.

Okay, I apologise for sounding too agressive/defensive, but this has been something that I've struggled with for a long time, including just talking about it. 

I'm eternally envious of people with perfect skin and I'm worried that I will never get perfect skin ever, but I'm pinning all my hopes on Doctor KW Chan and his hopefully magical cures for now.